“God’s comfort and promises are there for us in every phase of life. Through His word, He offers us the confidence to know He is in control and we are not.”
As the time came for me to put my new baby girl down for the night, I felt the anxiety grow. I had no reason to be fearful but yet I was. Friend’s advice to let the baby sleep in a cradle beside my bed sounded reasonable, so I tried it. I awoke to every little coo and grunt and could not manage to get the sound sleep I so desperately needed. I tried moving the cradle right outside our bedroom door so I could hear her but not be awakened, but that did not work either. The time had come. I had to trust the Lord with my daughter and put her in her crib where she needed to be. The thought terrified me as I was so afraid to leave my daughter in her crib alone.
So began a ritual that brought me so much peace and one that I have continued to this day…17 years later. Each night as I lay my daughter down, I pray a prayer something like this: “Lord, she is yours and only mine as long as your will permits. Your Word says you do not grow faint or weary (Isaiah 40:38). You do not sleep nor slumber (Psalm 121:3-4), but you know that I need sleep in order to function as I should. Thank you that you can be here with my daughter while I sleep. Thank you for staying with her and watching over her when I literally cannot.” And that’s how I put her down every night, and as His promises are true and faithful, I was able to sleep soundly. I continued this with the birth of my son when he was also in a crib.
Then came a time when my husband and I wanted to get away without the children. Again, the anxiety began to build as I imagined all the things that could happen while we were away. I remember voicing my concerns about leaving to my sister. I explained how guilty and fearful I felt. I am so glad that she called me out, and I have never forgotten her words to me. She said that as long as I held on to fear and anxiety about leaving my children, I was not trusting God to care for me and my family. She reminded me that the Bible says, “Man’s days are determined; you (God) have decreed the number of his months and have set limits he cannot exceed” (Job 14:5). He has numbered our days – my children’s and mine – and it did not matter if I was here or there. God’s will would be done.
I hold on to these truths and they comfort me as I send my children off to school, as I watch them drive off in the car alone, and as I prepare to send them off to college soon. God’s comfort and promises are there for us in every phase of life. Through His word, He offers us the confidence to know He is in control and we are not.